not today:(

Well, last night we stayed in a hotel here in town, had a blast with the kids, friends and family..and of course  hoping for a positive phone call today about court....you see, while we were sleeping last night, court was happening in ET....so therefore, i did not sleep well, at all!! Anyhow, The MOWA(ministry of womens affairs) letter was not there...which means we didn't pass,but birth family was there...so that is one less factor for our next try..So, dissapointed we were,but also felt horrible sadness, as i knew our sons birthfather was there,and officially relinquished his rights..and that makes me so,so sad. I can not imagine how that would have been.But forever thankful, that we are called to be his family...and honored we all are:) So, we are praying that the MOWA letter miraculously arrives wherever it is necessary,and we get a call saying.."you passed." Otherwise, we are rescheduled for April 14th....2 wks. has never seemed so far off in the distance...It's hard to even put into words how badly i want to meet, hug, kiss, hold, nurture our boys...And then all of a sudden, out of nowhere...kate says, " mom, it will happen soon." And really, in the scheme of things, it will....and in 3 months from now, we'll be sitting here wondering how it all went so fast!! Ultimately, we know that first and foremost, our children belong to God, and we are so lucky and blessed to be their parents here on earth...so, he knows what is best, when the right time is, and all of these what if's and why's that go through my head.....so, with that, I feel peace...now, all I want is to have our boys home and be together, a family of 6!!!   Here's to a better nite sleep:) xo kristen