aging & aggravated

Ok....where do i begin?? We, along with 4 other families, had court today in ET, and DID NOT pass...ugh!! Yep, thats exactly how i feel...ugh...how is this so?? What was missing this time?? So many ?'s....This process of waiting, praying, wishing has aged me like 10 years....This morning brought back memories of when i was pregnant.... just waiting, and waiting and more waiting for that darling, precious package of baby love and joy to come...and we sit here today still waiting..i just want them home!! All of the info we received, was that all families did not pass, and we havent been rescheduled due to internet problems in ET..so we WAIT...to hear something..i really dislike not knowing, or i guess i should say i dislike not being in control...yes, i'm working on that one..ha!! Please pray for whatever the problem, issue, paperwork missing be there soon..and may there be an answer to our ?'s sooner rather than later!! Also, for grant and kate...they were soooo excited this morning, and now i'll have to pick them up, and soothe their little hearts...they were obviously hoping that they would be big brother/sister today....so for today....I'll be waiting...xo kristen