peace.

Just have to tell you about a day I had about 2 wks ago.... Normal Thursday...besides having to have my teeth cleaned( which I never look forward to, but Love it when it's all done...I love super clean teeth!) Oh, & I had my oh, so fun MRI of my brain...yep, my brain! Crazy...I know...But I was at peace...and that's something to celebrate. YOu see, with having MS..even though mine is very mild...it's good to have yearly or in my case...since I love getting them done like alot...well, then it's more like 2-5 years!! I'm a procastinator with things like that!! Anyhow, I went into it..knowing & feeling how nervous I was...I always get myself so worked up before I go...while I'm in that Clausterphobic(sp?) small tube..I wonder the whole time what the tech's & nurses are seeing on the computer. BUT.Not. This. Time. Nope.. I laid there as calm as can be...I was so peaceful...it was really unexplainable!! For the 45 min laying there...God was just speaking scripture to me..." I can do all things through Christ that strengthens me." Phil 4:13
"So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you & help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." Isaiah 41:10
Ok, on with the story... So, after being in there about 30 min..the nurse brought me out...gave me a little poke & while we sat there, we talked. She had asked if I had children, how many & If we were done yet. Hmm. Nope, we aren't done. The Lord is not done. I explained to her that we are waiting for our little girl from ET. She immediately teared up. She explained that she & her husband tried IVF 4 times...& by the grace of GOD she was able to go through 2 pregnancies!! WOW!! BUT, The Lord is working in their hearts..they are very interested in adopting...but you know what..the one thing that they worry about is the FINANCES!! Yep, That's how we were too...& still are. I encouraged her. I mentioned that we struggled with the finance stuff too. We hated the idea of fundraising. I was proud. too proud. And through our process of bringing our boys home...I learned how to receive. Receive from giving people. Friends, family & even complete strangers. God is Good & so very faithful. He funds what He favors. So, after my MRI was completed I had another gal ask me questions about adoption...you see, if I wouldve been my normal, anxious self at the MRI center...they probably wouldnt have felt comfortable asking questions...God was all over it...I left, and on the ride home.... i was literally shaking my head & saying" God, you are so big, you are always right there...right when I needed you most...please give these 2 women strength, peace, comfort in their decisions regarding adoption!" So, my prayer is...that the woman I visited with would step out in faith...knowing, trusting & believing that God will provide. So, I sit here today...2 days before I'm about to have a fundraising Garage sale...peaceful. I'm not panicking about where the funds will come from. They will come & not a minute too late. God is faithful. And, that my friends...is good news!! I've been thinking about the most frequently asked question or obstacle regarding Adoption...And, I don't know about you, but I'd say that finances is a big one... I used to say..." We can't afford this." And now, I know with all of my heart.." these children, whether from here or there..."THEY CAN'T AFFORD IT, if we continue to let the finances hold us back!!" They can not afford it if you & I would turn & walk away. they can not afford it. So, today I stand in peace. Peace that really passes all understanding. Good stuff people!!
So much going through my head, so, sorry for the jumbled post!!! xo